Something Appropriately Dramatic

I'm going to start writing here again. I really mean it. I've put off a lot of things I should be doing in favor of not doing anything. It's really easy to do and in the mean time, I've done things that feel like they need to be done but in doing them, I've ignored what I really need to do. I started a dream journal that has one entry from about two months ago. It's mostly gibberish written in chicken scratch about collecting debts and polygamy. I don't even know what was happening.

So, the problem with writing is that if I want to write about a subject, I should believe myself an expert and I don't really have any expertise. If I want to write about myself, I should live a life worth commenting on and I don't really believe I do. I guess I could fake expertise. I suppose there's a third option, which is making the commentary about the mundane things seem more interesting. Instead of "washed dishes so my girlfriend didn't have to" I could say "I performed a selfless deed in defense of a fair maiden" but that doesn't sound more interesting, that sounds dorkier.

I guess the situation is that interaction in Arkansas is still weird for me. The people here are completely different from what I'm used to and I have trouble connecting with them in general. Well, that might not be true; it might be that people in general are weird and I got really lucky earlier in life to find the people that I found but now I'm not around them, I'm here and I have to learn to adapt. I worry so much about being understood that I think I'm harder to understand because of it. I guess that's probably a good well to draw from as far as writing is concerned.

I'm cutting this short because I need to go buy some soder at a discounted price but rest assured that if you have been waiting desperately for me to update this blog, your wait is over and the updates should be more frequent(less than a year between them, at least). If you're just reading this blog for the first time, hello and thanks. Then I guess this is where I would put a winking smiley if that was the kind of person I was and I would say something like "See ya real soon kids".

Wait, that's kind of dark. How about "Until next time, fare thee well." No, that's dorkier. How about "Peace." Yeah, that's so cool. Pretend I said that instead of anything else after that stuff about winking smileys. Thanks. Peace.