What is passion? It is literally defined as "strong and barely controllable emotion". Every time I think about people who talk about something they are passionate about, it's often something trivial. I could describe myself as passionate about video games or Star Wars. In fact, I could describe myself as passionate about a lot of fictional worlds and pretend places. So, why is it that I feel so passionless when it comes to important things like politics, health or religion? I will literally stop what I'm doing if someone says that the Star Wars prequels are better than the originals. If that same person says that they're voting for Romney or Obama, I keep walking. Obviously, there are some things that people are set in and no amount of arguing is going to change their mind. I guess that's why I can't be passionate about those type of things.
I love to sit around and discuss anything and everything. Fiction is set, though. Lightsabers need focus crystals and the Enterprise needs dilithium and that's just the way those things work. In life, nothing is concrete. For every reason that someone gives you to vote one way, there are just as many to go the other way. I talked about this with my brother but it bears repeating. I will jump out of my seat and find the nearest computer to google some random fact about a movie or a video game to make absolutely sure that it's right but when it comes to what I put in my body, sometimes I have no idea what I'm eating.
Life is tenuous at best and each day could be the last for any of us or for all of us. The universe can literally destroy us without any warning and we can't really do anything about it. Why be passionate about something completely irrelevant in the long run? I guess there's a sort of feeling of some sort of order, even if it's not real. There are real things I'm passionate about. I'm passionate about my significant other, even if I don't always show it. I'm passionate about protecting her and her children, whatever that may entail. I'm passionate about figuring out what to do with life, which seems like a cop out but I don't think it is. There's no definite answer to why we're here or what we're supposed to do and I think it's up to each individual to take responsibility for their own life. Apathy is easy and I'd be lying if I said that sometimes, actually most of the time, I take that route because it's easier to say "I don't care what you say" than to try to justify my choices or rationalize whatever it is that I'm doing. I guess right now I'm trying to find a way to express my passion without letting it control me.
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